An explanation (an attempt)

I don't know why but it must be like this
​quiet and cautious and sealed with a kiss
private but public and fearful and raw
​I know what I meant but not what you saw
and it's too late to go back,
too late to undo
and the only way out now is through
I will hold my head high
(or at least I will try)
and I know even if you hear what I say
you won't understand me quite the right way
and my heart bleeds and rends
wishes tears could mend
wishes someone more skillful
could comprehend.  ​